My First Year Seminar

Ahhhhhhhhh~~~ 好开心哦哦哦哦哦~~~

First Year Seminar SciFi Film and Lit is turning out to be the most amazing class everrrr. I think I’m looking forward to it even more than my musical theatre classes, sometimes. Ahahahahaha KYAAA KYAAA KYAAAA~~~

The professor’s this old Danish woman called Vibieke Petersen, but she asks us to call her Vibs. Anyway Vibs is AWESOME. She’s really funny, very liberal, highly intelligent and perceptive, duh, of course, she’s a professor but oh gods damn it it is SO good to be able to hold a decent intellectual conversation with someone for once, I mean, she’s a rich source of knowledge and insight and I’ve learnt sooooo soooooooo much stuff from her. Hurr~~ I love her. Yes. Anyway she praised me last class, it was like:

Vibs: So where are you from?

Me: Malaysia.

Vibs: Oh~ I thought you went to high school here…

Me: No, I didn’t. XD I went to high school in my own country.

Vibs: Well they have given you an excellent education. *wink*

Oh, and before that~ we talked a little bit and she explained about why she didn’t let me talk so much in class, ahahah, she’s done that so many times already I think she knows that I was just a little hurt when she shut me up that first time I was a bit… err… overenthusiastic about expressing my opinions. Haha~ and then she told me, she told me she was really happy I was in her class! And I was like OMG OMG OMG, like, awwww that’s so sweet and anyway - self-esteem increase 1000%!! I think if it was manga I would have melted into a mass of squiggly limbs and goo. XD And then… I told her I was really happy that she was my teacher too. And she was like good then everyone’s happy and I was like YEY~ XD

Oh and I’ve been getting high marks for my response papers in this class, like, nothing below 90, and then last time on the environmental issues one I got 100% ^///^ and the latest one about apocalypse I got 98% because my response was too long and I used a small font and maybe because I didn’t cite any sources. >.<>.<>

I love praise like crazy. I - simply - LOVE it. I’m fucking arrogant that way. And I despise that. And I don’t want to be arrogant. I hate myself for being like this. And this freaking fear of being arrogant is interfering with my enjoying the praise and just accepting it and going on like normal. Praise interferes with my thought processes tremendously. Hurr. I take on paper praise much better than face to face because - yeah - if it’s face to face, mind goes blank, don’t know how to respond, blah blah blah, but recently I’ve decided to just say ‘Thank you’ when someone goes ‘OH YOU”RE SKINNY’ and all that shit but if it’s on paper I can handle it because I don’t have to respond to the person praising me. Hahaha~